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I have a cold and light fever. I live alone, also in a foreign country, away from my family. I am Single. In moment like this I feel really lonely, even cooking or picking things around the house are felt as huge. I feel so alone when I am not good physically. Not texted friends, as it seems their issues are always more important than mine. My best friend has 2 Kids and always burn out.. another best friend is pregnant.. they do not really know how it feels to be sick and alone with no one taking care of you. It seems just unrequired Drama

On top of everything else, I think I&#8217;m in love with my boss.

Nearly 7 weeks and still, I can&#8217;t stop thinking about him. It was just a load of talk and a kiss, and I know I&#8217;ve just built it up in my mind but God I can&#8217;t get him out of my head.

I would never admit it to anyone but sometimes I dream of being single… no husband, no kids, no mortgage, no grocery shopping, no teacher meetings, no 1000 birthday parties a month… just me, my work and silence in the evening. I feel like a terribly person writing this, but this is how I feel sometimes…

I don’t have anything that excites me in my life. And I know I’m supposed to create or find these things but… I don’t. I’ve tried a lot of various hobbies, met different people… but when I need to talk about something, I’m just empty. I cannot connect with people because I have nothing to share and I don’t want to share that small bit that I have. Maybe some people are really simply not made to be part of the society

Still here, existing in my thoughts, where I can daydream of giddy excitement and wondrous lust as I pick my way through what&#8217;s left of my hopes and dreams. To realise that nothing is getting better, only time and age is passing me by, not knowing if I really truly have the energy and drive to have the 2023 that I dream of, to live and not just exist. To find that one night of happiness again and again and to know, what if it&#8217;s out there, what if he was the one to make me happy, even if just for a moment. Is it worth the heartbreak?

1 month and 3 days since my small indiscretion at the Xmas party and I&#8217;m still fixated on him. How do I move on from simply the thought of someone. I&#8217;m starting to get panic attacks because of this now.

Sad, really sad. You see, before Xmas I went out with work, had a great time, but most notably got quite a bit of male attention. something I never get, maybe because I never go out, and this was all from my bosses brother in law. He was pouring over me for hours, asking me (and my female colleagues but mostly me) if he could kiss me, drunkenly telling me I was beautiful, asking if I enjoyed sex (wtf?!) Generally acting besotted with me, and I resisted so hard (I&#8217;m married but I don&#8217;t think my husband fancies me any more, I&#8217;m sure he doesn&#8217;t and we&#8217;re not physical). I resisted until we were in the taxi on the way home when I let him kiss me. He&#8217;s all I&#8217;ve thought about since, and I&#8217;m so miserable because I want that feeling again, that rush. He begged me to &#8220;find him&#8221; before I got out&#8230;

Happy New Year speaktacular ladies💪🎉🤩 3… 2… 1…. let’s rock it💃🏻💃🏼💃🏽💃🏾💃🏿💃

Its really hard sometimes to always deal with the weight of being internally motiveated and completely different than everyone I know. Neurodivergent and all, is all fun and all but I dont feel seen and its exhausted to not be able to talk with domeone about it.

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