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Today I feel frustrated … things are not easy … at the moment I am searching for a full time job( lost it through corona because it had to close) i am teaching a bit, but it is not enough … trough this last two years I saw that people where I that they are my friends , give a f… of me… that hurts… I often feel like I have no one to talk to… my best friend changed so much since her weeding. We never talk for our own, there will be alway her husband and yes I’ve said her I would like to talk just we her,we’ll she ignores it…. And she don’t want to go out without him. 
I am happy to be in a relationship but all the frustration comes between us… so we are often fighting about nothing … he is working much and needs time to relax and for his own and I would like to do something.thx for reading😊

Oh my God has it kicked off. It was so tense today, then later on in messages he&#8217;s accused me of being rude, belittling and disrespectful over how I spoke to him, saying it verged on bullying. Says he finds it hard to respect me when I am so disrespectful towards him. No one has ever said that about me before, if anything I am praised for my patience and excellent training style! I&#8217;ve tried to sort what I can over a WhatsApp convo and will speak to the director on Monday to work out how to move forwards. He doesn&#8217;t realise how much we carry him in that office and if this is what he considers doing a good job then lord help us! Or him! No longer indecisive, I decidedly dislike his entire being!

Sun! Fresh air! New manicure! Aperol spritz! Happy weekend to all amazing ladies out there. Never forget that YOU rock 💃💃🏻💃🏽

Hubby&#8217;s bones were not jumped, however other guy was in my office all day today and ANNOYED THE LIVING HELL OUT OF ME! talk about fantasy Vs reality 😂😂 he doesn&#8217;t listen properly, I swear we&#8217;re all carrying him in his role, I don&#8217;t even know what he does all day! At one point I was trying to show him something on the screen and he was checking his phone, I was like &#8220;oh I&#8217;m sorry am I boring you&#8221; jejdudjsbdhdfognehsucbsd !! 
If he ever does that again I&#8217;m gonna take his phone off him!!

Me again, I told him to call me Mistress. 
I don&#8217;t know what to do with myself sometimes I really don&#8217;t. 
He said it once on the phone at work and I damn near lost my mind. 
I&#8217;m a danger to myself.

Today i feel confused and guilty and trapped! 
I&#8217;m happily married and childfree. 
But, there is this friend&#8230; 
He&#8217;s not particularly handsome or cute or more something than my husband. 
But when he&#8217;s nearby we&#8217;re just like magnets. I love his smell, his skin, his sensuality. 
I need him as a friend and he need me the smae way. 
My husband has been clear : he couldn&#8217;t stand a polyamourous relationship. 
Why? ! Why can&#8217;t I stopped dreaming about the other one?! Aaaarrrgg!

Today I feel frustrated and/or sad. I was chatting with a person, an us marine, located in Turkeys..last time we talk, she said she had to go out of base. Now I haven&#8217;t heard from her in 5 days, she doesn&#8217;t read my messages, the phone is mute &#8230; and i don&#8217;t know what to think anymore &#8230; will she be ghosting me? There would be no reason&#8230; will anything have happened to her? I don&#8217;t know what to think anymore..or what to do..

I have previously mentioned on here about a colleague, and a safe space I felt I had created with him via WhatsApp with master/kitty thing which wasn&#8217;t too over the line but was screwing me up a bit so I stopped it. 
2 weeks on and he suddenly says to me, when I was off work sick, &#8220;get well soon mummy bear&#8221;. He also responded to a work email with &#8220;yes mama bear&#8221;. Colleagues saw that one, they&#8217;re chill tho. 
What is he trying to do. I&#8217;ve not really mentioned it. He clearly has mummy issues, I am a mum but not to him!! I do care but I care about everyone I work with. 
I started to think, well, maybe it&#8217;s affectionate and cute, but realised that if anything I&#8217;m trying to be seen by other as not just a mum, I want to be seen as me!!!
MILF maybe, not mama bear!!

I finally found peace after a nasty and years long divorce ☀️ World, I am coming 🙌

I feel sad but also a bit hyper. I had a drink earlier which took the edge off then got all sad and hyper at the same time. Manically sad maybe? Giggly to myself on the outside but also sad on the inside. I&#8217;m so overwhelmed and many would say my life is easy, but I&#8217;m definitely tired and not coping with work family housework etc. Always wondering why I can&#8217;t do it all, then it gets too much and I crash out emotionally. Quietly. Not crying. Just, hollow, inside. I want what I can&#8217;t have. Or at least I think I do. But if I had it, fun excitement, would I be happy. I think I just want some support at home, but I barely have any. I&#8217;m just existing for everyone else, I&#8217;m not living for me like everyone tells me I should. I&#8217;m worried I&#8217;ll have so many regrets when I&#8217;m older. I&#8217;m 38 now.

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