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I was informed today that I will stop working on October 12th. I don&#8217;t know if I can find another job soon, and don&#8217;t know how to maintain financial security..

Today I had a talk with my boss, like a yearly feedback thing. I just started last January and we have a renewable contact each year. He told me I’m not motivated and I’m not working to my full potential. 
But do I really have to be motivated ? How do you become motivated? I don’t think I’ve ever felt that… I told him I prefer staying indifferent than being disappointed if something goes wrong… but really, is there no chance for me if I have no strong motivation? I feel like I am not even motivated enough to live and yet I have to somehow show my motivation to work… I don’t understand how to live haha

I feel like I am becoming who I was always meant to be. So many years feel lost to pain, loneliness, trauma, feeling misunderstood. Finding out why these feelings defined my life for so long was such a game changer. I am slowly opening my eyes to see all the ways I changed myself, made myself smaller to make it easier for others to deal with me, even when they hurt me. I never realized what it truly means to take care of myself and it is a fulltime job. I am so proud of the work I am doing, of facing whatever is uncomfortable. I am fearless in the pursuit of my own well-being an happiness. I am nowhere near as stable as I want to be and there are still bad moments full of fear and doubt. But they don&#8217;t define me anymore. I define me. I love who I am. Wishing all the sisters here this love!

I&#8217;ve been having nightmares for the past couple of days, thinking that no one understands me and that I&#8217;m completely alone. I have feelings for a guy who has prioritised his work over everything, told him how I feel, he chooses to focus on work. We were seeing each other over a year now, and suddenly he doesn&#8217;t exist. Knowing about my codependency tendency, I try to focus on me, but can&#8217;t stop blaming me for his change of behaviour towards me, because I&#8217;ve expressed that I&#8217;m in love with him. Those mixed thoughts and the tremendous guilt are exhausting me.

Today I feel sad&#8230; And trapped in my mariage.

I feel so bad, I have to move to another house and deal with the end of my relationship at the same time. I feel I gave everything for this relationship and in the end I lost everything

I just want to fall asleep and never wake up again.

Today i feel frustated. 
Life is not going good. Got myself into some financial trouble and i dont know how to get out of it.. 
I dont know what to do. 
I get stressed sll the time because of this now.

I don’t have any passions in life. You know, like some people love dancing, or drawing, or reading etc. If you ask them about the music they like, they’ll tell you the whole story of the musicians life. And I, I simply don’t care. I might like some things but not so deeply to study all the small details about the author or the method… it seems like I’m just shallow and don’t have a depth required to really love something.

Bored, frustrated with my llove life

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