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I&#8217;ve been married for 20 years. But, even before married, this relationship was never good. He is too possessive, too nervous, too selfish, too everything. 
And why continue in this relationship? Because I&#8217;m afraid of f what he might do, sad because he&#8217;ll be alone. And guilty because it&#8217;s me who is making all of this &#8220;mess&#8221;

Today i feel insecure.. my daugther is a bit sick and i have no choice but to go to work&#8230;.

Oh my God has it kicked off. It was so tense today, then later on in messages he&#8217;s accused me of being rude, belittling and disrespectful over how I spoke to him, saying it verged on bullying. Says he finds it hard to respect me when I am so disrespectful towards him. No one has ever said that about me before, if anything I am praised for my patience and excellent training style! I&#8217;ve tried to sort what I can over a WhatsApp convo and will speak to the director on Monday to work out how to move forwards. He doesn&#8217;t realise how much we carry him in that office and if this is what he considers doing a good job then lord help us! Or him! No longer indecisive, I decidedly dislike his entire being!

I feel alone and unheard. Like I keep getting stuck in a pit and nobody’s offering a hand to help me get out when I’m begging. Frustrated with everyone and everything, especially myself. I feel like nothing about me is good enough and that’s why I keep ending up in a bad place.

Sun! Fresh air! New manicure! Aperol spritz! Happy weekend to all amazing ladies out there. Never forget that YOU rock 💃💃🏻💃🏽

Hubby&#8217;s bones were not jumped, however other guy was in my office all day today and ANNOYED THE LIVING HELL OUT OF ME! talk about fantasy Vs reality 😂😂 he doesn&#8217;t listen properly, I swear we&#8217;re all carrying him in his role, I don&#8217;t even know what he does all day! At one point I was trying to show him something on the screen and he was checking his phone, I was like &#8220;oh I&#8217;m sorry am I boring you&#8221; jejdudjsbdhdfognehsucbsd !! 
If he ever does that again I&#8217;m gonna take his phone off him!!

Happy because I‘m loved and I love

Me again, I told him to call me Mistress. 
I don&#8217;t know what to do with myself sometimes I really don&#8217;t. 
He said it once on the phone at work and I damn near lost my mind. 
I&#8217;m a danger to myself.

My partner and I have been together for more than 5y. He has a 6y old daughter and is still married to her mother, although separated for 5y. His daughter means everything to him, and I&#8217;ve grown to be fond of her. I know that she loves me. I also know his still-wife and we get along well. He does the best he can to make time for all of us and is very considerate with me. We have been through a lot but managed to make the best of it! He&#8217;s a wonderful partner and father. 
However, I can&#8217;t get rid of the feeling that often, I&#8217;m living &#8220;his&#8221; life more than mine. I love him, but I&#8217;m considering to break up, hoping to find someone with whom I can build my own family. And still the mere thought of giving up everything we have scares the hell out of me.

I have previously mentioned on here about a colleague, and a safe space I felt I had created with him via WhatsApp with master/kitty thing which wasn&#8217;t too over the line but was screwing me up a bit so I stopped it. 
2 weeks on and he suddenly says to me, when I was off work sick, &#8220;get well soon mummy bear&#8221;. He also responded to a work email with &#8220;yes mama bear&#8221;. Colleagues saw that one, they&#8217;re chill tho. 
What is he trying to do. I&#8217;ve not really mentioned it. He clearly has mummy issues, I am a mum but not to him!! I do care but I care about everyone I work with. 
I started to think, well, maybe it&#8217;s affectionate and cute, but realised that if anything I&#8217;m trying to be seen by other as not just a mum, I want to be seen as me!!!
MILF maybe, not mama bear!!

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