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I feel exhausted and a low mood persists.. Sad as my daughter has decided to cancel me an d has persuaded my son to do the same &#8230;

Frustrated&#8230;because I need to get working on my next steps in my career and I can&#8217;t stop procrastinating. My husb doesn&#8217;t understand me at all and instead of motivating me he tells me to get started and not act so lazy. I feel I constantly have to defend myself. I feel insecure and an scared to fail since its been a while I was working professionally. I feel my workingfield has evolved so much that I don&#8217;t know anything anymore. On the other hand I know it is me who needs to get into action mode.

Today I feel both sad and appreciative. My dad was so generous to gift me some money for my birthday. I caught a glimpse of his bank account. He has enough money but what made me sad was realizing that my mother has some money, too, and that sum could be more. My mother could put the money she stashes away together with dad&#8217;s so they could have more funds for investing, for instance. She is incredibly selfish. She just wants to keep her money and she doesn&#8217;t spend it nor invest it &#8212; which is like burning money. This is important because my dad has only a joint account with her. My mother&#8217;s stuff is her own and nobody can touch it that is why she has her own account, whereas dad&#8217;s money is for everybody to use. I&#8217;m so sorry for dad.

My job consumes me. All of me. All the time. I cant do, think, or talk about anything else. I lost control. 
Help.

My mother is obsessed with me. I really wished it was a joke or an exaggeration of my own self-importance, but it&#8217;s not. My mother is now blaming everything bad in her life on dad and wants to go away but wants me to come with her. For instance, let&#8217;s say she wanted to travel somewhere, she wants me to come with her. I&#8217;m in my 20s and also currently working as I study. My dad defends me telling my mother that I do not have to go with her if I don&#8217;t want to but she thinks that dad is manipulating and controlling me, that is why I don&#8217;t want to go. She sees me as an extension of her, her property to do as she pleases. Moreover, when I&#8217;m in my room working, she barges in even when I&#8217;m talking to clients. She knows I&#8217;m working but she doesn&#8217;t seem to care. I&#8217;m frustrated and tired.

My boyfriend asked me to have a family with him. I always thought I don&#8217;t want one, but as I was confronted with this question for the first time, it brought me back to my childhood. To all the terror, fear and pain, and I realized that I didn&#8217;t want a family because I was too afraid to be in a position that gives me the ability to nearly destroy a vulnerable little persons life by not being there for it, like my mother wasnt there for me. 
It took everything in me, but I said yes to a family with him. The love I feel was stronger than my fear.
Then he dumped me.

My busy family life also makes me feel extremely exhausted at times&#8230;. But I just have to keep going, day and night. I keep telling myself: they are only so little (2 and 4), they need me most now. Today the youngest said, when I asked who your best friend is, at nursery. Then he said, that&#8217;s you mummy. Then I can also just give them kisses and hugs and forget what a bad night I had again.

I&#8217;m 40&#8230;.and unfortunately have tried for a decade trying to have children with my husband. Just wanted to share this. Most of the time I&#8217;m okay, but when I hear pregnancy anouncements..I feel really sad.

The other day when talking to my mom, after visiting a friend who just had a baby, she warned me &#8220;not to become one of those cat ladies&#8230;&#8221;. I didn&#8217;t think anything of it, but today she apologized for it. Leaving me super confused, as in, she thinks it&#8217;s bad I&#8217;m a 31 year old lady with a cat instead of a couple of kids? I&#8217;m pretty succesful at my job, not so successful with my relationships but I&#8217;m not even sure I want kids! Her apology today makes me feel as if she thinks I&#8217;m a failure for not having kids yet. Something I&#8217;m fine with, but it makes me sad that she thinks I&#8217;m not &#8220;complete&#8221; without kids.

I feel like an old dinosaur, exhausted day after day… waiting for the rain to fall over me and bring back energy like a 🪴

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